It's very easy to lose yourself in the hustle of being a mommy. Some women can perfectly balance motherhood and a social life while others, like me, have to work for it. I am one of the types that get over come with mommy guilt. I have decided that what is best for my child and myself is for us to have a little more time apart than just daycare and work. So I have vowed that once a month I will have a girly night. I am still on my no boys until 24 kick. So far so good.
The really good thing about vowing not to enter a relationship for a while is you weed out a lot of people who don't really deserve you. Some men get very impatient. I want a man who will be ok with taking this slow. Until I find him, I'm never going to settle, so I will enjoy the freedom. 2012 is all about saving me. This is the year that I learn to balance my social life with being a mom. I have pushed myself aside for nearly 3 years now. It's time I get myself back. I am already down 35 lbs. Which is fabulous, not good enough but it is great. I still have at least 40 lbs to go before I am satisfied.
So Last night was my first Girls night of the year. I got to hang out with two beautiful ladies as we watched two funny guys put on a wonderful show. It was the most fun I have had this year. This year has just begun though so I have plenty more opportunities to make fun memories like this one. Which also brings me to say if you haven't been to the Sit n Talk Coffee shop in Beebe you really need to go. Not only is the coffee AMAZING the entertainment is pretty good also. I have only been once but I have a feeling I will be more often. I can't wait until I can be there for a karaoke night. Hello, super fun right there! I feel like I need to brush up on my boy band dance moves though...hmmm
I made some resolutions at the beginning of the year that I am ashamed to say I am already slacking on. One in particular was to take more pictures. I feel as though I have completely failed on that one. Another is to do more philanthropy work, also failed. So the year is still young, I have time to get back on track. I can take pictures of everything, aim to do better in the world, talk to a few more strangers, and just be a better and more positive person to be around. That has been my goal all along. I love to talk to people, I can talk about anything and everything. I am a pretty social person if I do say so myself, and I like to think that I am friendly. It seems like a talent to me, some people can touch their noses to their tongue and I can start a conversation with anyone. So it's time I put my talents to use.
Saving me isn't just a slogan that I came up with for my year, it's a lifestyle change. When you aren't happy with something you need to change it. You only have one life, once chance, you are either going to make it worth while or not. I never want to be the person who settles for less than spectacular again. I want it all. I happen to think I deserve it also. So I challenge you to save yourself. Even if you think you haven't lost yourself, just dig a little deeper and figure out what in your life could be better or that you would change completely and do it. When all else fails remember to always Go with God :)