Sunday, March 18, 2012


What an eventful 48 hours I have had. Friday on the way home from work I got into a car accident. It was completely my fault. I wasn't paying enough attention to what I was doing. Everyone thinks they are immune to something and youre not. I though "it won't happen to me" and it did. Luckily I was not seriously injured and neither was the person I smashed into. I will say that I am relieved I hit a man with a truck who was by himself. It occurred to me that my lack of attention could have costed me or someone else their life. Had I hit a motorcycle or a small car with a baby in it...idk it just makes me sick to think about How stupid I was.

I spent most of my Saturday shopping for a new car because mine was totaled and I had liability only. So I am now the owner of a 2012 Nissan Sentra. It's a nice car and I am excited to have it...just not under the current circumstance. They had to order it because it seems like now days car lots only keep the super loaded cars there...I don't need super loaded...I just need semi loaded. So I should have it by Wednesday. I have a loaner car until then.

I just want to express how important road safety is. Keep your cell phones away from you while driving. Whatever it is can wait until you reach where you are going or until you make a pit stop. The lives that could be at stake for you checking that one message or dialing that one number is simply not worth it.

I held it together until my dad showed up and then I just cried and cried, pulled it back together and then when I got home and saw my son (who was not in the car with me) I just lost it. I held him and I just cried. I couldn't help but think about the what if...and I should think about them. It's important to know how lucky I was and all the damage that I could have caused.

I have included a few pictures of my injuries which aren't much at all. Just fr the airbags. I will post pictures of the car when I see it.

Friday, March 9, 2012

Before starting P90X

This is my before P90X post. These pictures are about a month old and I have actually gained one lb since this picture. I actually like these pictures though. For those of you who have been following along you know that this is far from the beginning of my weight loss journey. I started at the end of August weighing in at roughly 205. I kick started my journey with phentermine, which if your bmi is high enough your doctor may prescribe it to you.

One important thing to remember when you are losing weight is that be Leary of people who come out of the woodwork. Naturally you will spark more interest from the opposite sex, but it's not always good interest. Be sure to keep the friends you have because friends tend to not wear the same rose colored glasses as we do. Just trust me on this one.

I have always been chunky...or at least I always thought so. Looking back I can see how people thought I was nuts. What I am trying to say here is that your self image is much worse than everyone else sees you. You are your worst critic. If you start losing weight make sure it's because you want to. Not because you want someone else to like you or pay attention to you. The only way you will successfully lose weight and keep it off is if you are doing it To make yourself happy.

So like I said, I ordered P90X the other day and the tracking says I will probably receive it tomorrow. I haven't fully decided if I will start the day I get it...but then again this is about throwing all the excuses I know out to the wind. I need to buckle down and get serious. It's time for a change. I need to be on shape enough to kep up with my son as he grows.

I am thinking about starting a YouTube video blog to go along with my 90 day P90X challenge. I will let you all know what I decide.

Love ya mean it!

Thursday, March 8, 2012


Well I accidentally ordered this. I say accident yea, don't judge. So I shall take it as a sign and when it comes in my 90 day challenge will begin. Get ready.