I can remember my labor process almost perfectly, I will not go into it though. But there is so much about that day that I will carry with me forever. The moment the nurse placed Hayden on my stomach when he was first out of the womb and I said "Hi, baby" and he just stopped crying and we just stared at each other.
That picture means so much to me. It's a moment that every mother dreams of. The first time you lay eyes on that beautiful little person who you have been growing and learning to love for the last 9 months. It becomes real. You can see their little eyes, their little noses, hold their little hands. It's such a magical moment that I wish for every woman.
At 9:57 am, August 17th 2009, my world was complete. I held everything that I could ever possibly need in my arms. This picture is how we have remained. Mommy and baby, taking care of each other. It hasn't been easy, but I am so glad I have had the experience. It's not ideal, everyone wishes for the perfect family where they mommy and daddy are happily in love, two car garage, soccer practice, the whole nine yards...but for many women this is not the reality. Their reality is working 40+ hours a week, driving over 30 miles away for work, having no social life, no love life, barely enough money to scrap by, and the happiest little smile waiting for them every day.
My reality is beyond what I could have ever thought. I struggle, but in these last 3 years, I haven't regretted one moment with him. That little boy is my world, my everything. I don't need anything else so long as I have him. My baby boy turns 3 tomorrow. He is growing faster than my mind can comprehend. This mommy has so many emotions that I can't even form a rational thought half the time.
That little boy has been my light in a world of darkness. I was never a wild person, but he keeps me grounded. My eye is on the prize. A child raises your standards on everything, or at least they should. My cup runneth over. There are so many more memories to be made in our future, you can bet I look forward to them all. The good, and the bad. I am a different person now. I'm a better person.
That little boy has been my light in a world of darkness. I was never a wild person, but he keeps me grounded. My eye is on the prize. A child raises your standards on everything, or at least they should. My cup runneth over. There are so many more memories to be made in our future, you can bet I look forward to them all. The good, and the bad. I am a different person now. I'm a better person.
It was no accident me finding you
Someone had a hand in it
Long before we ever knew
Now I just can't believe you're in my life
Heaven's smilin' down on me
As I look at you tonight
I tip my hat to the keeper of the stars
He sure knew what he was doin'
When he joined these two hearts
I hold everything
When I hold you in my arms
I've got all I'll ever need
Thanks to the keeper of the stars
Soft moonlight on your face oh how you shine
It takes my breath away
Just to look into your eyes
I know I don't deserve a treasure like you
There really are no words
To show my gratitude
So I tip my hat to the keeper of the stars
He sure knew what he was doin'
When he joined these two hearts
I hold everything
When I hold you in my arms
I've got all I'll ever need
Thanks to the keeper of the stars
It was no accident me finding you
Someone had a hand in it
Long before we ever knew
Someone had a hand in it
Long before we ever knew
Now I just can't believe you're in my life
Heaven's smilin' down on me
As I look at you tonight
I tip my hat to the keeper of the stars
He sure knew what he was doin'
When he joined these two hearts
I hold everything
When I hold you in my arms
I've got all I'll ever need
Thanks to the keeper of the stars
Soft moonlight on your face oh how you shine
It takes my breath away
Just to look into your eyes
I know I don't deserve a treasure like you
There really are no words
To show my gratitude
So I tip my hat to the keeper of the stars
He sure knew what he was doin'
When he joined these two hearts
I hold everything
When I hold you in my arms
I've got all I'll ever need
Thanks to the keeper of the stars
It was no accident me finding you
Someone had a hand in it
Long before we ever knew
Happy Birthday Baby
(a day early, but that's ok)